My Neurosis

So I am a bit neurotic. This Sunday will mark the 3 month anniversary since my last post and i am determined not to make it 3 months. I won't, I can't, I shant...you get my point. Why the absence? I am going to let you peek into the innermost dark side of my brain and let you in on my neurotic side. If you choose not to be friends with me after...i understand and don't hold anything against you, tony might take issue, but not me, i won't judge.

So here goes. After christmas i had every intention of posting the usual christmas pics, but it didn't happen. After new years i had every intention of posting the usual new years pics, but it didn't happen. After this i was about a month late on posting anything new and the guilt was already starting to creep in. Meanwhile, all of my fellow bloggers were working diligently on keeping up, taking time out of their busy days to communicate with the rest of the world. oh no, but not tiffany, its not that i didn't have the time...i just didn't feel like it. But the guilt was overwhelming. How could i be apart of a blogging community when i wasn't participating (and by participating, i mean actually working at it). The only simple solution, banish myself from the blogging world until i was ready to play fair. And this is where the neurosis sets in, their is actually something in my brain that says you can't enjoy the fruits of other peoples lives and labor if you don't actually put the work in yourself and be a contributing part. I know, I know this is blogging we are talking about for heavens sake, but i warned you...i'm crazy. so after a month of not updating a swore off any interaction with friends blogs because it just wasn't fair to them. it killed me. i have all my friends set on my favorites and had to pass over it every day. checking on my friends blogs was such a highlight in my day. my mornings were such routine, drink coffee, bounce henry on my lap, set curtis up with enough cheerios to kill a horse so he wouldn't bother me...and then check everyones blog.

But i've had it, i can't stand not knowing what is happening with all the good people in the world. no more can i handle my mornings with CNN reporting that all the goodness in the world is being bled and sucked by leeches. i need laughter, smiles, joy, rainbows, kitten sweaters, butterflies...not really, i hate mariah carey. i digress. all this to say, after i am done writing this, i am catching up on the peoples lives i love the most. no more putting jack bauer first, no more putting law and order svu first, no more putting top chef first, no more putting the office/30 rock combo first. no my friends you are first again, and i am so happy, a bit insane, but happy.